..the truth that i cannot hide anymore..

sometimes when we tried very hard not to make things worst between two people
the other party just sit down and watch and does not put any effort on it
even worse if the other party is acting opposing your initiative
why must it be like that
making us feel like what we've tried for so long doesnt worth trying

tried so hard not to think negatively
tried so hard not to get sad
and tried extra hard not to get disappointed
coz you know,
once you're disappointed
things will never work out the way we wanted it to be,
the way it was supposed to be

but i know
somehow
i'll think of some negative thoughts
i'll fell a lil sad
and i cant help myself not to get disappointed
coz i know
i'm a girl
that explained everything

will this be as i always wanted it to be?
will it be as what i always dreamed of?
will it be the way it was supposed to be?

from now on
i'll just let it be the way it can be
i'll just wait and see what will happen
maybe this could be the end
maybe this is just an obstacle in life
maybe it is just a dream
if it is,
please help me to wake up from this long dream
please help me to not to put any more hope in it
coz i cant afford to get hurt again
coz if i do,
this will be the worst.

love!