..the truth that i cannot hide anymore..

sometimes when we tried very hard not to make things worst between two people
the other party just sit down and watch and does not put any effort on it
even worse if the other party is acting opposing your initiative
why must it be like that
making us feel like what we've tried for so long doesnt worth trying

tried so hard not to think negatively
tried so hard not to get sad
and tried extra hard not to get disappointed
coz you know,
once you're disappointed
things will never work out the way we wanted it to be,
the way it was supposed to be

but i know
somehow
i'll think of some negative thoughts
i'll fell a lil sad
and i cant help myself not to get disappointed
coz i know
i'm a girl
that explained everything

will this be as i always wanted it to be?
will it be as what i always dreamed of?
will it be the way it was supposed to be?

from now on
i'll just let it be the way it can be
i'll just wait and see what will happen
maybe this could be the end
maybe this is just an obstacle in life
maybe it is just a dream
if it is,
please help me to wake up from this long dream
please help me to not to put any more hope in it
coz i cant afford to get hurt again
coz if i do,
this will be the worst.

love!

..memori untuk dikenang..

Novermber 7 2009 - KYS Speech Day

excited giler nak gi amek sijil for spm

tapi excited lagi nak jumpe kawan2, juniors n teacher kat kys

after da lame apart


so aku pon bertolak la gi melaka mlm before tu

bermalam kat umah 'wan' cousin aku kat tampin

sampai2 je penat giler

after salam2 diorang terus tukar baju and boom!

tidur...tak kesah aa ape orang nak cakap

yang penting aku penat n kena bangun awal the next day


the next day nye

bangun awal la gak

aku siap2

pakai baju kurung biru

bajet nak pakai selendang biru which was the perfect match for my baju kurung

pastu diorang komen cakap tak elok pakai selendang

terus tak jadi

so ended up pakai tudung putih je

tak glamor langsung


so off to KYS yang terletak kat ayer keroh

jauh gak aa

sampai2 je

jumpe junior2

bestnye

lame tak jumpe diorg

lame tak tengok KYS

da banyak berubah

ngan roundabout yang besar giler kat depan main gate tu


pastu start la ceremony

nyanyi lagu KYS after sekian lame tak nyanyi

terasa lawak pon ade

aku plak terlupa part nak angkat tangan kat mane

pas ceremony aku bajet nak jumpe la juniors aku

but ended up jumpe yana sorang je

sebab yang laen ntah ilang gi mne

farah suhaila plak kena balik awal

haih...agak tak berbaloi balik KYS tak jumpe diorg


..balik Tampin..

balik tampin...tak lame tu kuar plak gi pekan tampin

wan nak shopping barang dapur and dedak ayam

and wan tiba2 gi beli tilam dua ketul

balik je umah

aunty J sampai ngan kak sarah



lepak2 jap kat dapur umah

den diorg ajak lepak bandar melaka malam tuh

terus siap plak nak kuar gi bandar melaka

first time la aku lepak2 kat tepi sungai melaka malam2

bajet nak naek cruise tu

tapi tak tau asak tak jadi

pastu pergi pasar malam kat situ

JONKER WALK



aku ngan makcik saje tak bawak duit

to prevent diri kitorang daripada berbelanja

and surprisingly, aku pancit

sebab jonker walk tu panjang sangat

nak balik tu ikut jalan mane ntah

jauh giler jalan

da la aku pakai heels.

memang terbaek aa

sampai umah kul 1230

SUMPAH PANCIT SEHARIAN BERJALAN

 balik terus tido mampos


esoknye bile sampai je kat college

terpaksa struggle wat homeworks yang banyak gile!


love!

..unsuccessful budget plan..

outflows > inflows

--> BOP disequilibrium , BOP DEFICIT

victim : unnamed
inflows : RM2300
outflows : RM3000

needs vs wants
obviously WANTS will win
definitely..most of the time
well...ALL THE TIME

emm...wants will turn into needs in the long run
we spend money this time,
we wont be spending for the same thing in the future
right?
or maybe not
spend now, and also spend later

walking passed Elle, Armani, Nichii
you can help yourself to look through the display windows
n you can help not to walk in the stores
i mean, yeah
you cant just LOOK, rite?
to just LOOK at it and to TOUCH it are two big different things
to TOUCH it and NOT TO BUY it is something to regret
--> deep depression

buy 1 free 1
2nd item for 1/2 price
10% off
20% off
50% off
70% OFF!!!!!!!
rugi kan kalau x beli?
i mean, bila lg nak dpt mende yg mahal dgn harga murah?
can you stand not buying cut off price item?
it would be a great loss
not buying them
--> deep depression

think about it...

love! 

..good kick start???..

camne kalau kita plan nak start the day with a smiling face...
tp keadaan sekeliling yang tak membantu..
sumpah tension..

pagi tadi, aku plan aa nak senyum
nak bangun pagi dalam keadaan sehat
(sebab semalam aku sakit teruk)
bangun2 terus kemas katil
da kemas tu, aku nampak laptop aku leh connect internet
happy gle aku sbb da lama gila aa tak online
tak tau pehal internet kat sini wat cibai seminggu ni
den...

aku gi toilet, bukak air sink
..nothing..
repeat
..nothing..!!!!!!
camne aku nak mandi ni???!!!!!
da la aku tengah cuti bulanan
hadoi...
memang xle idop aa..
call dza tanya umah die ade air x
die cakap ade, tapi karat
tak kesah aa kan...asalkan ade air
tapi aku tak sanggup aa nak berus gigi dengan air tuh
aku korbankan la mineral water aku tu
aku try bukak paip sink dapur, ade plak air
saje nak bagi aku angkut air jauh2 dari dapur gi toilet
tak pe, aku wat gak demi nak mandi

abes kesah air
aku siap2 nak gi klas da ni
dza da miss call
nak sarung kasut.....
ttbe aku nampak ade bahan buangan binatang pe ntah atas kasut aku

YA ALLAH!!!!!!

sabar je la za oii
rase nak nanges je
dah la da lambat
abes mood aku sehari ni

mmg btol orang cakap

hari seseorang tu bergantung pada keadaan pagi die

pagi ni aku paling suweyy
sumpah aku nak burst out je kat sume orang
slamat sabar aku still ade
jangan la mende ni jadi lagi..
tolong aa
aku xlarat aa camni

love!